A Letter To My Son

Dear Caleb,

Yesterday you had your 4 month shots. I can’t believe that I have only been your mom for 4 months. It feels like a lifetime already. You make it so easy to be a mom, to be your mom. I cuddled with you most of the afternoon while you slept because I knew you needed it. I knew that you needed the warmth and safety of mom’s arms. Yes, I had to take leave without pay from work but it was worth it. You’re only going to be this small once.

You slept all day and into the evening. Even though I knew that I should wake you, I let you sleep. I knew that your little body needed the rest, even if it meant that we would be up all night. Sure enough, at midnight, you woke, ready to start your day. It made for a long day at work only having 3 hours of sleep, but how could I be upset at you? All you wanted to do was “talk” to me last night, to play with your toy, to share your happiness. Every time I looked over, your brown eyes looked right back at me. You would smile, a smile that filled my heart with joy. I know that you don’t understand the concept of love yet but you know that I am your person, your protector, your provider. I am your world.

But it won’t always be like this. As you grow bigger, as your world grows bigger, you won’t look at me the same. Sure, I’ll always be your mom and you’ll always love me, but things will change. Someone else will come into your life and I want that for you… one day… That’s why I had no problem staying home with you yesterday. I know our time together is short.

I’ve already watched you grow so much since you were born – cooing, reaching for things, holding your head up, interacting with others, TEETHING – it has been so amazing. I can’t wait to see where this journey continues to take us.

With love,

Mom

Happy New Year + Veganuary

Happy 2018!

2017 was certainly a stellar year for my boyfriend and I. We found out that I was expecting a little one, turned 30 years old, and we welcomed our Lil Bean into this world. Even though my business didn’t make an appearance at many in-person events, I had more online sales than in previous years.

I fully believe that 2018 will be even better. I plan to continue growing my business and I have a super awesome project that I’ve been working on the past few months launching this March.  I’ll get to watch Caleb develop in so many ways. My boyfriend and I will be one step closer to achieving our goals (the homestead).

I stopped making New Year’s resolutions years ago. If there was a change that I wanted to make, I would go ahead and implement that change. I didn’t want to have to wait until a new year rolled around. That being said, I have decided to try Veganuary. Veganuary challenges you to go vegan for 31 days (the month of January) in an attempt to raise awareness about animal suffering and to show the impact of veganism on your health.

We already have cut down on meat consumption in our household (and rely mostly on what Robb has hunted instead of purchasing meat from the supermarket) but I would like to make it so we one day only consume what we produce ourselves.

I don’t plan on ever going 100% vegan as I don’t see an issue with using the infertile eggs from our own chickens but I can see us adopting even more of a plant-based diet for humane and health reasons. I didn’t start Veganuary today as I didn’t want to waste leftovers but plan to make an honest effort of it and look forward to experimenting in the kitchen.

Have you ever thought about adopting a plant-based diet?